29 1/2 weeks

Wow- it's been forever since I last updated!! I guess I can say life is busy with a toddler- which is true! I haven't had as much time this pregnancy to focus on being pregnant more of it being a transition to till the baby is here. I have the nursery mostly set up. I am hoping to get more help once the baby is here and I really need to line that up.. I also have to install the carseat, but other than that I could totally have a baby here tomorrow :) Which of course I don't want b/c the baby has to bake for another 10 1/2 weeks :)

I love feeling the baby kick, and totally wonder what he will be like. I am very excited to meet him, and start integrating him into our lives. I love Eli and his energy now, and how I don't have to carry him around all the time and that he is just so much more independent. I know the time will fly by so I am trying to enjoy his sweet toddlerness before he gets all big and grown and doing things on his own!!

But what else? I start seeing the OB every 2 weeks now until 36 weeks then I go every week, then I deliver (g-d willing) of course! I have another u/s in about 3 weeks to see how Mr. Baby is :)

This time I have rented a heart baby doppler and its nice hearing his heartbeat!! Perhaps the next time I update I could be closer to delivery!!! Eek :)

Hope everyone is well!

14 1/2 weeks

This pregnancy has been different from the first one. I had more time to sit and concentrate on the last pregnancy and it was a really hard one, and because this one isn't as challenging and I have a toddler running around, the attn needed to be devoted just is so much more reduced. I wonder if that is how life is going to be- nothing will get the full attn it deserves? How do people handle so many children? Do some get shafted?? I am the first born so I always felt that I got what I needed b/c I was the first one to go through everything, but what if I was the 2nd or the 5th??

So this pregnancy has had some hot flashes, extreme tiredenss after working, back pains and normal pregnancy stuff. The thing I miss the most is my lack of ultrasounds. I feel that unless I can see the baby then who knows what is going on and its just alot of faith that everything is working right.

There are commercial stores that will let you do ultrasounds if you pay them, but they won't let me come in until I am 16 weeks. I would like to do an ultrasound a month, and even if this means having 1 at my doctors, and 1 at another place and 1 at another place that is my choice :)

I don't accept that I can't have what I want :)

Not a whole ton is new right now, but I wanted to post abt this pregnancy being different. Hopefully I should know the gender very soon. My mom is looking to hire a night nurse for a month afterwards so that should be wonderful as I will totally need it :)

Okay- hope everyone is well!

12w ultrasound

I am finding that this pregnancy is so much different from when I was pregnant with my son. I am not having the same tiredness, exhaustion, etc that I had, and I was waiting for it.. Everyday I was like uh oh tomorrow it will come! And it didn't. However this time I am getting hot flashes and my back is going out a bit more. I thought maybe my back was going out due to weight, but apparently thus far I have lost a lb! So thats good :)

I FB announced it the other day, and made sure to tell everyone who I know and love before that of course. I feel FB is like announcing it in the paper, everyone else should know so I tell them. But I am chugging along on this pregnancy. I am working fulltime so haven't had alot of time to really think about it. I will have alot more time in the Fall, so I can really prep and get ready then.

Otherwise I have tons of thoughts about siblings, and getting them to love each other and be best of friends. But I didn't have that with my siblings, so I feel that I get the perfect opportunity to do the right that I have been wronged by. I probably at this point think that I will only have 2 children, so I want them to be friends, and be there for each other, girl or boy, they can still grow up together and be happy.

I love being a mother and feel blessed that I get to be twice blessed!! I just have to make sure I have more 'me' time.. Not sure how thats going to work but I am sure it will...

So numbers here.. my son just had his 2nd bday party (music themed), and baby in belly is 12 w, 4 d old!! :)

Ultrasound

Had a good ultrasound on Friday. Saw the baby's heartbeat like literally, I could see it on the screen, it was crazy cool. I mean thats so amazing that there is something the size of a bluberry with a heartbeat in me! I am not trying to overthink it or I will go crazy :) So on those lines- I had a stomach bug the last couple of days and that sucked, but I seem to be recovering from it, just weak b/c that is the fun of the first tri. You are just EXHAUSTED all the time.

So taking it day by day literally. And my darling son is starting to show his "two-ness" so sometimes I don't even have moments to think abt being pregnant, but I try to rest when I can!! Tis it for now. And alot of the food I am eating these days taste gross so I am throwing out a ton of food, don't know why that is... But I did make choc choc chip muffins tonight and those were good :)

~7w,1d

Food cravings

I am currently 6w,5d preggers and I am having a major food craving and non of my preg friends are on to listen to me.. So I am gonna blog about it. I want really good pizza and delicious breadsticks. I want thin crust with chunky tomato sauce and a nice cheese. Made in a brick oven with a pizza stone.. Like a REAL pizza should be...

*sigh*

I am going for an ultrasound on Friday at 11:30 to g-d willing hear the heartbeat will let you know after that!! :)

Beta

Sooo, I had my betas this past week, which was 100000% nerve wrecking, but I survived (just barely). My first beta was on Monday at 13dpo and I got a 48.9. Looking back to what I had with Eli, it was nowhere in comparsion. So I kinda freaked for a bit, calmed myself down, freaked some more, then finally 48 (well 42 really) hours later and I did my 2nd beta and it was 107. So thank goddess it doubled. Now this fertility clinic is different from my old one which required 3 betas, then an ultrasound the next week.. This one is just 2 betas, and I don't get an ultrasound until week 7. So I have 2 more weeks to wait until I see a picture of my baby. But honestly I have been paying for everything out of my pocket up to this point I may just ask to see if I can get one upon request..

So I am 5weeks,0days preggers now. Symptoms included burping, tiredness, cravings, and def. nesting. I am doing a ton more cleaning, nesting then I was before. I really like being pregnant. It's a nice feeling. Everything I do and buy for Eli, I now go "well this will be for two!"- it of course justifies my spending, but whateva :)

So thats the latest for now. Will have an ultrasound g-d willing in 2 weeks..

:D

3rd IUI

Well it's been a while since I've updated. I was feeling a bit overwhelmed emotionally in the process so I need some non-retrospective moments. But, I had my 3rd UI. I finally got those smiley face things on the OPKs. I hadn't ever seen them (I don't think), because usually the OPK doesn't work for me. But I was ovulating!!

So I call them frantically the next morning to see if I can have an IUI the next morning, and it just happened to be Easter and they told me they couldn't do it, so I had to wait till Monday. And so then I went on Monday and had my IUI. They told me it was good timing... and I believed them (not really!). But of course they were right.. I took an HPT last night and this morning and apparently I'm pregnant :) :) :) :) :) :)

Of course I still have to do all the betas and make sure I have a sticky baby... But g-d willing, ya know? What will be will be and I will do my best :) I had very little PG symptoms this time other than a stuffy nose, a bit of a hurt stomach and some moodiness, but other than that its been okay so far :)

So again journal readers you are the first to know- if you know me in real life DO NOT POST THIS ON FACEBOOK :)

Yay!!!