I am listening to Ryan Adam's song 'Amy.' Its a very pretty song. I feel that I should have full disclosure on this blog because if I want this story to be left to others, then I should share my journey. Right now I feel tired, but calm. I know the decisions that I make will be a good one and that they are right for this time of my life. Alot of talk was happening on the Single Mother by Choice listserv today about which womyn were ready to have kids and which were not. I personally don't think any of us can judge that and that every womyn, and every journey is different.
Life changes. I am not ready for changes. But sometimes one must swallow back the tears and just give into it. So I must take a deep breathe, open my eyes and begin down this new path. Everyday has a new dawn.
I had a really good soothing talk with a dear, close friend of mine earlier. We were frank and honest and I just got to say things that had been milling around in my mind for a bit. I will always treasure our friendship and I am glad that we have it. So big changes are coming. I think. I don't know really.
What comes next is just time and waiting for the perfect moment to happen. Like I said before I have completed all the doctors appts, tests, signed all the consent forms and purchased the vials of love. Now its just waiting for the perfect time. I won't say when I am going to begin and I wont give crazy daily updates as the months progress. But I will pass on another great site that was on the listserv.
www.twoweekwait.com
It is a great, fun website that you can wile away the hours away on btwn the 2 weeks that you wait after you inseminate to find out if you are pregnant.
Have a great night.
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