a day or two later

Well, the road block i thought i was having appears to have lessened.
I have been told that i should share what all the letters mean:
SMC- single mother by choice
TTC- trying to conceive

So when TTC there are so many things that can trip you along the way. Every possible issue has to be thought about- housing, finances, life, job, relationships. But i have to believe that the millions of people who have been having babies for millions of years have been okay and have made it work. So I just dont want to stress the little stuff.

I dislike when people mention things that don't have any answer at this point. I mean I feel that I am dealing with something that can potentially be wicked overwhelming. But I really refuse to let it be so. I am going to deal in every moment and just adjust the situation accordingly. I don't feel panicked or rushed or insane by this, I really want it to be a happy experience.

So as life continues I will work towards my goals and just exist in the moment and linger when I want. I was sitting in Panera Bread tonight having dinner and I was enjoying the light jazz music. It was so nice to sit slowly, relax, linger in the quiet and just have a nice time. I think thats the only way to take things.. to be present in the moment and just accept all good things around you.

There is so much to write about but I am watching American Idol!