It's hard

The whole process is hard. I am surrounded by kids on the weekend, when I babysit, in the grocery store, bascially everywhere. It's very hard to have these "wanting to get preggers" thoughts in my head and then nothing happening.

I haven't tested yet for this month but I have no symptoms and today I felt great. Which is wonderful but generally one feels something- nausea, irritability, a big range of emotions, etc. But I feel nothing.

So its a bummer again. I know alot of womyn take breaks during their TTC but I dont think I could just stop in the middle w/out a really good reason. It's like I am train thats going fast and eventually I will reach my destination.

*sigh*