On to month 4

Well it looks like this month won't be the one for me. But at least I'm trying! I feel this is very much a journey. I learn a little bit more each month and I'm def. expanding my universe. Its such a complex web of emotions. I'm high, I'm lo, I'm sad, I'm understanding. During those two weeks in which you are wondering/waiting you can't move your body much b/c you are afraid that you will 'knock something loose.' So you can't drink caffeine, get massages, bend alot or overall move much. So when you find out that you aren't preggers its like you get your body back...

But I'm sure that if I were preggers that would be more joyous then getting my body back. But I take heart that I am not waiting and I am going ahead with my plans.

So now we wait another 2 weeks then we begin again!

The stat is like it takes 6-9 mths, but I hope it's not that long!!!