With time

It has been a while since I have last contributed to this blog. There is much to say on a topic in which I think daily but haven't acted on since June. In this case its the journey that is counting and the wonderment of what is next. Whenever I think of children, I have a vision of warm family gathering around the home. Cold winter nights making cookies, popcorn and settling in to watch some Disney movie. I see after school sports and violin lessons. I see religious school and summer camp.

I don't see screaming children or needy toddlers or heartache. I try not to think to much abt the future in that regards because there isnt much to do or say or think about. Part of me isnt ready at all and doesn't know what to expect. But part of me is dying for a child in my arms.

There is so much to see and do in this world, and to accomplish it and see the reality of one's vision you must work hard. I want to study latin. I want to travel Europe and Asia. I want to become a better cook. I want to write books and study about the Presidency. I want to get a baby grand piano and just play whenever I feel like it.

I want to get a gigantic house with a gigantic yard in which my family can grow and live there. So all in all, there isnt much to report. Just throwing another log on the fertility fire this month perhaps in hopes of getting a spark.

:)