midwife

So I just watched "the Business of Being Born" which is a documentary abt the goodness of home birth and the badness of hospitals. It was very moving and very compelling and very like "womyn can do it- its natural- don't make it bad."

It was interesting. I am fortunate to go to a OB/GYN practice that has both midwives/doctors in equal numbers. I was going to have a doula but it looks like I haven't really taken up the lead on that one- but we shall see. So, if I use a midwife then they are less likely to make me want to do drugs. But I will still be in a hospital setting and most likely doing things I don't want to do. But, I don't know.. I have to sign all these legal forms for the hospital basically giving them consent to do whatever they want. I mean I hope to labor as long as I can at home until contractions are 10 minutes apart I believe... Then head to the hospital.

My thing currently is I hate the idea of IVs. I don't like 'em. I don't want 'em.. If I can have my baby delivered safely, then why do I need to have drugs fed to me through my blood?? So I am working on that emotionally and mentally. We shall see what turns up.

So tis it, I freaking can't believe I will be considered full term in 9 weeks and 3 days. I mean the time is just slowly melting away. Somewhere deep inside expects me to deliver early- I don't know why. But I just kinda feel it. I think thats why I am counting the way I am.

So thats my latest prediction: early delivery. We shall see what happens!! About once/week now I have been going by my nearest Super Target (which is about 2 mins from my house) and stocking up on great little boy clothes in the discount area. Makes me feel somewhat more prepared. Now I just need a bassinet, stroller, diapers and I think I am ready for the first 3 months of baby.

:) ~27 weeks, 3 days!