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So I am 36 weeks and 1 day and I have to say I am starting to feel like my old self again.. Not physically of course (more in a bit), but emotionally, psychologically. I think that because I can see the 'goal' and the fact that pregnancy is nearing an end, I am ready to move beyond it, with baby of course. These last couple of weeks have really been about what my life will be like after I have the baby. I feel blessed that I got to 36 weeks and will feel more blessed this upcoming Friday when I hit full-term. I don't think I am ready to give birth until after 38 weeks though. So in theory I would feel comfortable delivering in 13 days from now. Which is weird, but good b/c I am ready for the mommy part and to see my little boy grow.

My brother said the oddest yet most insightful thing tonight on the phone. He said that the 9 months of pregnancy are the longest, but the 1st year of life goes by like a flash. So I am ready. :)

I am due to attend a black tie event next Sunday night at the Aquarium downtown, so I would like to do that but really, I don't know. There is almost a peace thats going to come with the craziness of labor and delivery. Am I ready to go into a hospital and be hooked up to monitors and IVs and all of that? Its like you can either fight against it or you can just accept it and move on. I am somewhere in the middle.. But doing visualization and really accepting all the good and the bad will help me in the long run.

Physically it is tiring to be pregnant. I can't be on my feet for long periods of time, walking up/down stairs is a challenge, bending over is almost impossible... But its all only temporary for a wonderful cause! My bebe :) :)

I got a really super baby gift from my extended fam on Friday- the Eddie Bauer travel system and a 2nd bassinet. So other than the crib, I think I am mostly golden.. The real costs will be in diapering and perhaps formula (although I want to breastfeed).

So thats it for now..
~36w, 1d :D