Brand new world

Well, SO much has been going on that I have been amiss in not documenting it! We are grabbing for things, eating things, standing (with help), talking more, watching people/animals/things.. I think 5 months was a big one in terms of development. He works everyday on trying to sit up.. He is half way there. I love it. :D

And the womyn!! Ha! Seriously everytime we hit a girl btwn 3-5 they just melt around Eli. I have had at different points girls on both side of Eli's stroller touching him, talking to him.. 1 girl today said she loved him- and they just met! I don't know, I might have to be fighting girls off him his whole life!! Its sooo cute, and Eli's like who is girl?? Its soooo adorable. I want to take pics!

We are working our way through the holiday season- we did Rosh Hashanah/Halloween/Fall/Thanksgiving (a vegetarian one for him) and now we are working up towards Hannukkah, then I can take a rest for a while! He will be 6 months in about a week- my little boy will be hitting the 6 months mark- totally cool. I give him all sorts of food now to taste. He just kinda sucks on most of the stuff for now, but when I give him a bagel or hard bread he partly chews on it. He always has his hand in his mouth, and I think its pre-teething.

But thank g-d everything is going well.. I just wanted to leave you with a pic!

food and all night benders

Well my bebe has started on solids.. well kinda of. I was going to wait until he was 5 1/2 weeks but I figured my extended fam that was in last weekend would want to see it.. So I had everyone around the table, with the camcorder on, and.... he ate the 1/2 tsps worth of banana no problem. Then the next day the same. But then it was taking him longer to *you know use the little boys room* so I figured I would wait a little longer before I try again. Since, for now, I am making him his own organic baby food. I went out and got this gigantic organic sweet potato that I boiled, then pureed, then put in 2 ice cube trays, which I will then put in a ziploc bag for him for later. My goal is when he is a more regular eater that he will be eating all sorts of stuff- yogurt, peas, avocado, sweet potato, oatmeal, carrots, etc. So I hope to have little plastic baggies with this stuff that I can just let it thaw and serve!

Since he will be a vegetarian, as he gets older he will be having almond butters, tofu, whole wheat products, cage-free eggs, cream of wheat. I will be holding off on the meat-alternative products until he is a little older.. maybe in the 1 yr oldish range? But its good.. I was ready :)

So last night I put Eli down at 9:30ish, my normal time.. and he is talking to himself for a little then falls asleep. Then I hear him at 2:30 and his legs are caught in the slats (but he's fine) and I take them out, and leave the room. Then I hear him at 4, 5, and 6:45 still talking to himself. I have no idea if he got any sleep at all! It's his first all nighter without me!!

Cuteness with his older cousin!

My almost 5 month old

So, my beautiful baby is starting solids in 2 weeks! My beautiful baby I believe is pre-teething. My beautiful baby sat up for the first time last night! My beautiful baby.. is well.. beautiful! Can you tell I am biased ;)?? He's super cute. I'm glad he's mine. Your life changes so much when you have a child. I hear so much rhetoric about just everything, but I am guess you just don't understand the commitment until you grow in your love with your child as they grow. I have to be honest, when Eli was first born I didn't feel that motherly connection you hear womyn having "ohhh from the moment I saw him I fell madly in love!!"... Nah, I didn't have that. You grow in love as you get to know your child- their wants, needs, feelings, smiles, kisses,etc.. Love def. has to grow.. And its not just love. It's pride, satisfaction, love, sweetness, heart, growth.. its alot of different feelings.. I love being Eli's mother...

But it does take time.. Only now can I start to reflect on what was. I didn't want to think about the birth story really, I needed some time away from it before I could delve into what it was. Being a mother is such a bodily experience. From Birth, to caring for, to existing to everyday (puke, poop, drool- everything!)...

So, yes, I have changed.. for the better :)