So, my beautiful baby is starting solids in 2 weeks! My beautiful baby I believe is pre-teething. My beautiful baby sat up for the first time last night! My beautiful baby.. is well.. beautiful! Can you tell I am biased ;)?? He's super cute. I'm glad he's mine. Your life changes so much when you have a child. I hear so much rhetoric about just everything, but I am guess you just don't understand the commitment until you grow in your love with your child as they grow. I have to be honest, when Eli was first born I didn't feel that motherly connection you hear womyn having "ohhh from the moment I saw him I fell madly in love!!"... Nah, I didn't have that. You grow in love as you get to know your child- their wants, needs, feelings, smiles, kisses,etc.. Love def. has to grow.. And its not just love. It's pride, satisfaction, love, sweetness, heart, growth.. its alot of different feelings.. I love being Eli's mother...
But it does take time.. Only now can I start to reflect on what was. I didn't want to think about the birth story really, I needed some time away from it before I could delve into what it was. Being a mother is such a bodily experience. From Birth, to caring for, to existing to everyday (puke, poop, drool- everything!)...
So, yes, I have changed.. for the better :)
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