So I've cleaned, I've prepped, I've bought my last minute supplies and have actually started to eat somewhat healthier. I need to work on my sodium though, and just really try to block out all stress but, I'm ready.
So I guess we just wait for my next chance (which won't be for another couple of weeks), and then who knows.
:)
*here's to having faith and just closing my eyes and jumping right into the unknown*
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Monday, December 21, 2009
Where I am now
Okay- so I am about to turn in somemore paperwork, then next cycle will be doing more bloodwork, an ultrasound..
Then I have some additional administrative stuff then its time. Eekkk. I have been super cleaning, and it seems in the process I have more of a mess so I need to remedy that situation.
I am going to really attempt to destress this time around. I've purchased candles, bought a robe, and am working on the feng shui of my room. I want everything to be comfortable and inviting so I can just rest in btwn watching Eli :) In btwn the procedure of getting pregnant, called an IUI, I have two weeks to wait.. Its called the "two week wait" and in my opinion resting your body, eating fattening foods and overall just being positive is a good thing.
I feel already that I am going to be disappointed if I don't get pregnant the first time, b/c I am pinning alot on it, but I know the older you are the harder it can be. I plan to take the summer off so I have four chances before I take a break. It took me five months with Eli so I don't know why I think it will happen any quicker this time, but I feel like am I ready? will i ever be ready? will I be okay with a toddler and being pregnant? I was so careful the first time around and this time I have a child who needs to be picked up and eeekkkk.
But I am just going to do the best I can and hope for the best and have faith in the world :)
Wish me luck!
Then I have some additional administrative stuff then its time. Eekkk. I have been super cleaning, and it seems in the process I have more of a mess so I need to remedy that situation.
I am going to really attempt to destress this time around. I've purchased candles, bought a robe, and am working on the feng shui of my room. I want everything to be comfortable and inviting so I can just rest in btwn watching Eli :) In btwn the procedure of getting pregnant, called an IUI, I have two weeks to wait.. Its called the "two week wait" and in my opinion resting your body, eating fattening foods and overall just being positive is a good thing.
I feel already that I am going to be disappointed if I don't get pregnant the first time, b/c I am pinning alot on it, but I know the older you are the harder it can be. I plan to take the summer off so I have four chances before I take a break. It took me five months with Eli so I don't know why I think it will happen any quicker this time, but I feel like am I ready? will i ever be ready? will I be okay with a toddler and being pregnant? I was so careful the first time around and this time I have a child who needs to be picked up and eeekkkk.
But I am just going to do the best I can and hope for the best and have faith in the world :)
Wish me luck!
Friday, December 4, 2009
Set back, then back on track
Well I realized I hadn't posted in a while so wallah! I went to my first appt at the fertility clinic for child #2 and it went surprising the same as it did for #1. Like the same questions, answers, procedures, which is funny just more expensive this go around!! Because I had already done alot of the tests for child #1 I am able to bypass though which is good...
So after that I got my records sent done from DC, started on bloodwork for #2, and just have more bloodwork I need do at another point in time along w/an ultrasound to make sure everything is still working well "down there." I have to say they are extremely thorough and if you ever had a question about your health previous to having a child I would work with a fertility clinic b/c they take some of the risk away b/c you are just tested for so much!!
So when I had my initial bloodwork done I came back with a low thyroid number basically I was .001 off the lower end of the scale, so they had me retake it and everything was fine- I was smack dab in the middle of the scale this time so crisis averted!
One of the reasons I want to have #2 now is really as you get older there are just so many chances for things to happen its really crazy, so the sooner the better!
So basically I need to make sure all my records get to the right place which will be my job for this month b/c alot of people have off for the holidays and its generally hard to get records sent anyways :)
Then next months goal is to have more bloodwork and the ultrasound, and G-d willing in Feb... well who knows ;) I am really being smarter this time and not just rushing with trying to get pregnant. As much as I want to do it now, its going to cost me almost twice as much each time and I don't have the luxury of wasting it. So I have to give myself the best shot I have when trying to get pregnant.
I took some time off w/my prenatal vitamins but am back doing so, and am charting my temps in the morning to help refigure out ovulation. Sooo I am kinda in a countdown again :) So woohooo :D
So after that I got my records sent done from DC, started on bloodwork for #2, and just have more bloodwork I need do at another point in time along w/an ultrasound to make sure everything is still working well "down there." I have to say they are extremely thorough and if you ever had a question about your health previous to having a child I would work with a fertility clinic b/c they take some of the risk away b/c you are just tested for so much!!
So when I had my initial bloodwork done I came back with a low thyroid number basically I was .001 off the lower end of the scale, so they had me retake it and everything was fine- I was smack dab in the middle of the scale this time so crisis averted!
One of the reasons I want to have #2 now is really as you get older there are just so many chances for things to happen its really crazy, so the sooner the better!
So basically I need to make sure all my records get to the right place which will be my job for this month b/c alot of people have off for the holidays and its generally hard to get records sent anyways :)
Then next months goal is to have more bloodwork and the ultrasound, and G-d willing in Feb... well who knows ;) I am really being smarter this time and not just rushing with trying to get pregnant. As much as I want to do it now, its going to cost me almost twice as much each time and I don't have the luxury of wasting it. So I have to give myself the best shot I have when trying to get pregnant.
I took some time off w/my prenatal vitamins but am back doing so, and am charting my temps in the morning to help refigure out ovulation. Sooo I am kinda in a countdown again :) So woohooo :D
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Tomorrow.. ekkk
So at this point I drop Eli off at preschool, then I head a bit downtown and wallahh!! I go to my first appt for 2nd child.. Eeekkk. I want to start in the Spring as my insurance dictates I must, but I figured I can do as much groundwork as I can prior to my insurance so I can get off the ground running.
Eli had a tough day today with 3 teeth coming in and it was hard. He was crying hysterically for like an hr before I gave in and gave him his first every baby medicine (that wasn't an antibotic). But he needed to have something to numb the pain. But I wanted until he was almost 17 months so that is good. He slept for like 2hrs solid and then was his old self again which made me happy. But he has to be able to get through the whole teething thing and the whole walking thing before I have my 2nd child (g-d willing).
To me the really good thing is that I am so much more assured and confident abt this 2nd round. I know what to expect and what I need to do, and where I need to go. It's like I have been given the answer key now I just need to take the quiz! The good news is that Eli will be at least 2 1/2-3 before I have the next baby so he will be older and wiser ;)
So tomorrow, I take my first pre-natal, have my first appt., and soon start everyday monitoring my temps and I begin again. The time is now (well, almost now, but not just quite yet :) )
Eli had a tough day today with 3 teeth coming in and it was hard. He was crying hysterically for like an hr before I gave in and gave him his first every baby medicine (that wasn't an antibotic). But he needed to have something to numb the pain. But I wanted until he was almost 17 months so that is good. He slept for like 2hrs solid and then was his old self again which made me happy. But he has to be able to get through the whole teething thing and the whole walking thing before I have my 2nd child (g-d willing).
To me the really good thing is that I am so much more assured and confident abt this 2nd round. I know what to expect and what I need to do, and where I need to go. It's like I have been given the answer key now I just need to take the quiz! The good news is that Eli will be at least 2 1/2-3 before I have the next baby so he will be older and wiser ;)
So tomorrow, I take my first pre-natal, have my first appt., and soon start everyday monitoring my temps and I begin again. The time is now (well, almost now, but not just quite yet :) )
Monday, October 12, 2009
Making progress
Eli has started walking!! Albeit one step here, one step there but at least its progress. I am not going to mark it down in the baby book though until I see at least a 3-4 step consecutive thing happening. He now points to pretty much everything and goes "what's this?" and then "what's this?"- I think its a good positive step towards enriching vocabulary and him learning what everything is.
I have started to make some headway on my storage space- ritual cleansing for next baby- and that feels good. I made a firm 'to do' list of things I felt needed to be done before I could even try before next baby. So I am making headway on that and frankly I won't start trying if those aren't done because these things involve alot of physical labor I simply won't do when I am pregnant. So I either do them now or wait for a yr! Ha- and that's not going to happen.
It's really interesting as I am cleaning my stuff out I am going through older versions of myself. I know where I got a bunch of my books/records and I am really facing the question of to donate or not. It's like letting go of parts of me, but I have to realize I am an evolving person and those parts don't necessarily reflect who I am becoming (a mother). And all these things I give away I can get again somehow through a library or Netflix or online, but its still hard. I am at an odds with it. But I just have to beleive that these things will go to better homes than I can currently give them. My motto is going to be if I don't have space for them now, I am not going to have space for them in the future. And since Eli won't appreciate some of my books until you know he's 20, I doubt that I will have much time to pursue them...
Like I said its a work in progress but one I am happy that I am doing now :)
I have started to make some headway on my storage space- ritual cleansing for next baby- and that feels good. I made a firm 'to do' list of things I felt needed to be done before I could even try before next baby. So I am making headway on that and frankly I won't start trying if those aren't done because these things involve alot of physical labor I simply won't do when I am pregnant. So I either do them now or wait for a yr! Ha- and that's not going to happen.
It's really interesting as I am cleaning my stuff out I am going through older versions of myself. I know where I got a bunch of my books/records and I am really facing the question of to donate or not. It's like letting go of parts of me, but I have to realize I am an evolving person and those parts don't necessarily reflect who I am becoming (a mother). And all these things I give away I can get again somehow through a library or Netflix or online, but its still hard. I am at an odds with it. But I just have to beleive that these things will go to better homes than I can currently give them. My motto is going to be if I don't have space for them now, I am not going to have space for them in the future. And since Eli won't appreciate some of my books until you know he's 20, I doubt that I will have much time to pursue them...
Like I said its a work in progress but one I am happy that I am doing now :)
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Double stroller
So it's been a bit since I last wrote- alot of contemplating, alot of just being and alot of "what ifs." A friend of mine cosmically aligned me (not knowing it of course) by getting a double jogging stroller. I was at my fav place to shop- Goodwill that is, and there it was just sitting there waiting, a perfectly good working double jogging stroller, for $30. It took me about 5 seconds to snap it up before anyone else did. By buying this stroller I have put one foot in front of the other to begin to prepare for another child.
Eli is doing well, thank g-d. He still isn't walking, but always always on the verge of it. Like today he was standing reaching out for a toy and you could see he wanted to step over and reach it, but he stopped himself and sat on his tush instead. So we are there, I am practicing walking with him, but hopefully he will get it soon. He has 8 teeth in, and I guess at some point supposed to get molars in? Not sure abt that one, and we are working on speech.
People tell me that the big '18 months' is when the real toddler stuff begins. Its the place where they can't tell you what they want meets the fact that they will get what they want whether you can help them or not. I got a glimpse of that today when we were at Michaels and Eli was grunting/pointing towards something. And I was standing next to a wall of things and wasn't sure what he wanted. So I started offering him this and that, and finally we got to the markers, and I gave him one and he gave me a big smile. But in those in btwn 30 seconds it was hard!! I just hope that I have enough patience and kindness to do what is right in the moment and survive it/teach it/help him figure out the words to say what he wants.
I have begun tracking my temps for try #2. I started last month. I have a "lady appt" later this month with the midwife that I gave birth with Eli to. I am starting to get prices abt the costs of 'the procedures' and just starting to restart. The main difference this time vs last is I am fully versed in the what I need to do in order to start. There won't be as much wondering abt next steps, and more being proactive to make sure those steps are accomplished right.
I have a semi veil of secrecy over the when and how of it all. I intend to divulge some truths but not all. I can tell you it will be months before I begin- but not that many ;) The beginning is not just a get in the car and drive, but more of 'passing tests' to get a drivers license to get to drive type of thing. So its a process. One I do not want to rush. This g-d willing will be my last child for now (or ever???) and I want to be purposeful, knowledgeable and conscious abt every step I take.
It's hard having a total veil of secrecy when one lives with their family, but I will do what I can to the best of my ability without sharing so much. I am a big believer in the 'wait till 12 week' thing before you tell people you are pregnant, but when living with family I am not going to want to lift or do anything to strenous, so I am going to need their help which will be a dead giveaway of course :)
To be truthful to the blog world, I am nervous. Having one is a fulltime job, and at night when my son goes to bed I am off. I have a good 12 hrs before I am back on duty. The second I deliver, I am on again. 2 babies. Eli will be a bit older- not to much though, but womyn have done this before and will do it again. I just want my children (g-d willingly) be close to each other....
Having said that in my uber long post, I have begun my ritual cleansing in prepartion for baby. It's my multi month clean out of stuff which essentially allows the universe to give space for something new. I did it for Eli, and now I am doing it again. I have/had abt 15 boxes still unpacked and I realized these things in the boxes that I have now not touched for over a yr and a half are probably not doing me any good in the boxes. And that space it is holding up is precious space. So I am cleaning and donating and getting rid of the boxes.
I want to update more on this blog as the months progress, perhaps after my 'lady appt' later this month to make sure everything looks good. The weight ticker never worked so I shan't try it again!! But, nevertheless its on my mind and I have been doing little things to try to change my eating habits. Will it work? Only time will tell...
Alright- ciao for now!! :)
Eli is doing well, thank g-d. He still isn't walking, but always always on the verge of it. Like today he was standing reaching out for a toy and you could see he wanted to step over and reach it, but he stopped himself and sat on his tush instead. So we are there, I am practicing walking with him, but hopefully he will get it soon. He has 8 teeth in, and I guess at some point supposed to get molars in? Not sure abt that one, and we are working on speech.
People tell me that the big '18 months' is when the real toddler stuff begins. Its the place where they can't tell you what they want meets the fact that they will get what they want whether you can help them or not. I got a glimpse of that today when we were at Michaels and Eli was grunting/pointing towards something. And I was standing next to a wall of things and wasn't sure what he wanted. So I started offering him this and that, and finally we got to the markers, and I gave him one and he gave me a big smile. But in those in btwn 30 seconds it was hard!! I just hope that I have enough patience and kindness to do what is right in the moment and survive it/teach it/help him figure out the words to say what he wants.
I have begun tracking my temps for try #2. I started last month. I have a "lady appt" later this month with the midwife that I gave birth with Eli to. I am starting to get prices abt the costs of 'the procedures' and just starting to restart. The main difference this time vs last is I am fully versed in the what I need to do in order to start. There won't be as much wondering abt next steps, and more being proactive to make sure those steps are accomplished right.
I have a semi veil of secrecy over the when and how of it all. I intend to divulge some truths but not all. I can tell you it will be months before I begin- but not that many ;) The beginning is not just a get in the car and drive, but more of 'passing tests' to get a drivers license to get to drive type of thing. So its a process. One I do not want to rush. This g-d willing will be my last child for now (or ever???) and I want to be purposeful, knowledgeable and conscious abt every step I take.
It's hard having a total veil of secrecy when one lives with their family, but I will do what I can to the best of my ability without sharing so much. I am a big believer in the 'wait till 12 week' thing before you tell people you are pregnant, but when living with family I am not going to want to lift or do anything to strenous, so I am going to need their help which will be a dead giveaway of course :)
To be truthful to the blog world, I am nervous. Having one is a fulltime job, and at night when my son goes to bed I am off. I have a good 12 hrs before I am back on duty. The second I deliver, I am on again. 2 babies. Eli will be a bit older- not to much though, but womyn have done this before and will do it again. I just want my children (g-d willingly) be close to each other....
Having said that in my uber long post, I have begun my ritual cleansing in prepartion for baby. It's my multi month clean out of stuff which essentially allows the universe to give space for something new. I did it for Eli, and now I am doing it again. I have/had abt 15 boxes still unpacked and I realized these things in the boxes that I have now not touched for over a yr and a half are probably not doing me any good in the boxes. And that space it is holding up is precious space. So I am cleaning and donating and getting rid of the boxes.
I want to update more on this blog as the months progress, perhaps after my 'lady appt' later this month to make sure everything looks good. The weight ticker never worked so I shan't try it again!! But, nevertheless its on my mind and I have been doing little things to try to change my eating habits. Will it work? Only time will tell...
Alright- ciao for now!! :)
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
14 months, preschool, and starting again
Well Mr. Eli is doing great at 14 months. We are actively climbing (finally installed those baby gates), can stand up pretty much on anything, crawls like a mad man.. We aren't standing on our own or walking on our own yet but I do a TON of holding him so I don't know if it will just happen normal or slightly delayed because of that. He is a very social young gentleman.. He often likes being apart of the crowd and just really loves it- which is wonderful!
He is in daycare two mornings a week now which is just perfect for him and I am glad that I am able to give him this opportunity. I love everyone there so I am not to worried when I leave :) He had a great summer, so I am hoping for an excellent school year. He is such a sweet, funny, cute little guy- what an honor and privilege I have being his mother :)
Having said that, I have begun my countdown to restart the process for child #2. There is a bit of a fervor on my side because I just can't go and get pregnant I need to lose weight first. So I joined Weight Watchers, again. This time I am actually going to go to meetings, and do it online, so hopefully it will be helpful. I hope to restart the process in February so I have 170ish days... So can I lose 60 lbs in that time??? Probably not, but I can at least put a dent in this weight loss thing :)
Here is my ticker:
I will update on how the weight loss goes, and how Mr. Eli is doing. I am just taking everyday and trying to not feel guilty overall as a mother (which I am sure will stay with me a lifetime) and do the best I can. I think that is all I can really ask of myself. These next couple of weeks will be about cleaning out my space for another pregnancy/child (g-d willing), and losing weight and just preparing overall.
Have a great week! :)
He is in daycare two mornings a week now which is just perfect for him and I am glad that I am able to give him this opportunity. I love everyone there so I am not to worried when I leave :) He had a great summer, so I am hoping for an excellent school year. He is such a sweet, funny, cute little guy- what an honor and privilege I have being his mother :)
Having said that, I have begun my countdown to restart the process for child #2. There is a bit of a fervor on my side because I just can't go and get pregnant I need to lose weight first. So I joined Weight Watchers, again. This time I am actually going to go to meetings, and do it online, so hopefully it will be helpful. I hope to restart the process in February so I have 170ish days... So can I lose 60 lbs in that time??? Probably not, but I can at least put a dent in this weight loss thing :)
Here is my ticker:
I will update on how the weight loss goes, and how Mr. Eli is doing. I am just taking everyday and trying to not feel guilty overall as a mother (which I am sure will stay with me a lifetime) and do the best I can. I think that is all I can really ask of myself. These next couple of weeks will be about cleaning out my space for another pregnancy/child (g-d willing), and losing weight and just preparing overall.
Have a great week! :)
Friday, July 24, 2009
13 1/2 mths
Wow- I haven't updated in a while! Well...So Eli has had an AWESOME summer at daycare. Like amazingly amazing. The caregivers are incredible. I peeked on Eli being rocked to sleep in a seperate room by one of his caregivers, and she had put a blanket on him and was kissing his head and was rocking in a rocking chair. It was rockstar material. So I have loved it.. It's been great. At this point I have him going back in February when I starting trying for 2nd child.. But until that point, I decided that I wanted to homeschool him b/c he needs a bit of structure now otherwise he just spends his time crawling around, and its not fun.
So I am starting to brainstorm ideas. I visited the education store "Schoolbox" and have gotten some ideas from there. This weekend/next week I am going to start making little boxes with 'music', 'art', 'dance', 'reading', 'gym', 'water', 'cooking, etc.. Then each week we are going to have a theme, and corresponding to that theme we are going to have a field trip.. Each week is to not cost more than $50 in supplies, field trip costs. This way we are both exposed to new things, and we both can get out and have fun!
I am starting an excel sheet with lists of places we can go and how much it costs to go there. This weekend with our synagogue playgroup we are going to a toddler indoor playground- apparently there are least a half dozen places like that in the area. I had wanted to sign up to music classes, gymboree classes, but I don't want to beholden to any one particular thing each week. We already have free 1x week playgroup at the JCC which I will be going to (b/c that's where his daycare is and where he will go back to). So thats my latest news...
I am SUPER excited. I like the idea that we can explore these ideas together and we can see what works and doesn't. He is able now to appreciate somewhat these things, but now that his language skills are taking leaps and bounds I know that it will be worth it...
Sooo if you recall I had wanted to limit TV- so how am I doing?? Well, we are doing GREAT! The only time I let him watch TV is abt 5 mins at the beginning of a meal so he can focus on something else while I finish making meals. In abt a week Eli is finished with daycare so it will alot of house time again, but now that I am structuring it hopefully we won't fall into a TV routine. At this point he doesn't watch any. I am glad that someone donated the Baby Einstein DVDs to me instead of me buying it b/c I haven't even opened them. I feel like he will learn so much more abt life and people and society by observing (which he loves doing).
:D Thats it for now- g-d willing my next post will be about the adventures we have been on!!
So I am starting to brainstorm ideas. I visited the education store "Schoolbox" and have gotten some ideas from there. This weekend/next week I am going to start making little boxes with 'music', 'art', 'dance', 'reading', 'gym', 'water', 'cooking, etc.. Then each week we are going to have a theme, and corresponding to that theme we are going to have a field trip.. Each week is to not cost more than $50 in supplies, field trip costs. This way we are both exposed to new things, and we both can get out and have fun!
I am starting an excel sheet with lists of places we can go and how much it costs to go there. This weekend with our synagogue playgroup we are going to a toddler indoor playground- apparently there are least a half dozen places like that in the area. I had wanted to sign up to music classes, gymboree classes, but I don't want to beholden to any one particular thing each week. We already have free 1x week playgroup at the JCC which I will be going to (b/c that's where his daycare is and where he will go back to). So thats my latest news...
I am SUPER excited. I like the idea that we can explore these ideas together and we can see what works and doesn't. He is able now to appreciate somewhat these things, but now that his language skills are taking leaps and bounds I know that it will be worth it...
Sooo if you recall I had wanted to limit TV- so how am I doing?? Well, we are doing GREAT! The only time I let him watch TV is abt 5 mins at the beginning of a meal so he can focus on something else while I finish making meals. In abt a week Eli is finished with daycare so it will alot of house time again, but now that I am structuring it hopefully we won't fall into a TV routine. At this point he doesn't watch any. I am glad that someone donated the Baby Einstein DVDs to me instead of me buying it b/c I haven't even opened them. I feel like he will learn so much more abt life and people and society by observing (which he loves doing).
:D Thats it for now- g-d willing my next post will be about the adventures we have been on!!
Thursday, June 18, 2009
1 yr old!!
So my baby is 1 yr old. We had a wonderful birthday party with family and some of his friends.. I did an activity for the kids, I went out and bought card stock from Michaels for 29 cents/piece and a $7 ink pad and we did handprint and footprints, then named and dated it. I thought it was a cute piece that could be framed or stuck on the fridge for a while.. Then each of the kids had mini cupcakes with frosting, then we did gifts. I was so proud of me- I bought special balloons, tableclothes, bio-degradable forks, spoons- I loved it so much I left it up his whole bday week.
I love that he is 1. I LOVE LOVE LOVE that he eats all solids and no baby foods. We are still on 3 bottles/day but I am working to psychologically accept 2 bottles/day. I am supposed to be replacing his formula bottles with milk sippy cups. But he is only 1 yr, 1 week old, so I had a bit of slack on that. My guess is in abt a week or so I am going to take his total middle bottle and put it in the sippy cup and do half milk, half formula.
We have 6 teeth, are close to standing, crawling like a champ- no more commando crawling for him. He likes to play with everything- so much more interactive. Still loves the outdoors. Its very cute. I had been so panicked and worried abt him going into daycare but beyond those first couple of days he has been really good and I am glad that it is working out so well. I am not ready to give up my SAHM status yet, but at least I know he can handle it.
Back to the food thing- you don't realize how awesome it is eating out with a toddler who has teeth vs a baby who could only eat whatever jar of food you brought and had to hand feed. I remember a story a mama told me once abt how she hand fed her baby and now at 4 he still demands it. And so I totally refuse to that, b/c that is how he is with his bottles. So basically I take whatever we are eating (or order off the kids menu), cut it into bite size pieces and hand it to him to feed himself or just put 2 or 3 down for him to pick it up and eat it.
I have to go now but hope to continue this later!!
Here is a 1 yr old pic :)
I love that he is 1. I LOVE LOVE LOVE that he eats all solids and no baby foods. We are still on 3 bottles/day but I am working to psychologically accept 2 bottles/day. I am supposed to be replacing his formula bottles with milk sippy cups. But he is only 1 yr, 1 week old, so I had a bit of slack on that. My guess is in abt a week or so I am going to take his total middle bottle and put it in the sippy cup and do half milk, half formula.
We have 6 teeth, are close to standing, crawling like a champ- no more commando crawling for him. He likes to play with everything- so much more interactive. Still loves the outdoors. Its very cute. I had been so panicked and worried abt him going into daycare but beyond those first couple of days he has been really good and I am glad that it is working out so well. I am not ready to give up my SAHM status yet, but at least I know he can handle it.
Back to the food thing- you don't realize how awesome it is eating out with a toddler who has teeth vs a baby who could only eat whatever jar of food you brought and had to hand feed. I remember a story a mama told me once abt how she hand fed her baby and now at 4 he still demands it. And so I totally refuse to that, b/c that is how he is with his bottles. So basically I take whatever we are eating (or order off the kids menu), cut it into bite size pieces and hand it to him to feed himself or just put 2 or 3 down for him to pick it up and eat it.
I have to go now but hope to continue this later!!
Here is a 1 yr old pic :)
Monday, May 25, 2009
commando crawling, wanting to pull up
Well here we are at a shiny 11 1/2 months!! My baby boy is almost a year old. I really haven't time to reflect on that, so I will just give stats. We have 4 teeth all the way in and we are working on #5-7 right now. I can see 5, and 6 peeking through. We have been commando crawling since 10 1/2 months, and as of late he has been starting to get on knees and try to lift himself up on things. I feel its gonna happen soon- uh oh!! B/c after that is walking- my baby walking.. Totally weird!
In terms of talking we say "daddadadada" and "mamamamamma" and "yea" and "le-ah" and various other things. I am starting (and by starting meaning did it tonight) to do what things are (this is your nose, this is your ear, etc), so as he is learning his sounds, he can connect them to things.
He loves to be social, but still has a bit of seperation anxiety. I know I have a full blown case of it, I hate when strangers come up and try to talk to him, touch him, etc. We easily get stopped 5-10xs/day for people commenting on his red hair, and I don't truly enjoy it, but am learning to live with it!!
He now crawls everywhere and opens/touches everything. We have half baby proofed but its more like constant vigilence at this point, and once when he starts walking/running, its gonna be a totally different story. But he is never left alone, and is always in the same room with me (b/c I follow him to various rooms) so we can stop something before it starts.
He loves all our animals and wants to play with them, but at this point they just get annoyed and leave... Who knows if that will change! I like that they leave if they don't want to be there b/c then they won't swat him or something. He loves cell phones, remote controls, basically everything he can get his hands on.
I start my job this week so my parents are watching him this week, and he will be in daycare for the next 10 weeks. I have been having a very TOUGH time with this (including but not limited to panic attacks, etc), but I'm just gonna live through it and survive it and hope it goes well. He will be in the same building as me so I can come pop my head in (which I will 100% do), so that makes me feel a bit better. As long as I know he is in a safe environment then its ok...
Well, I think thats it for now. Am attempting to get my health in shape for child #2, in t-9 months!! Be good all!
In terms of talking we say "daddadadada" and "mamamamamma" and "yea" and "le-ah" and various other things. I am starting (and by starting meaning did it tonight) to do what things are (this is your nose, this is your ear, etc), so as he is learning his sounds, he can connect them to things.
He loves to be social, but still has a bit of seperation anxiety. I know I have a full blown case of it, I hate when strangers come up and try to talk to him, touch him, etc. We easily get stopped 5-10xs/day for people commenting on his red hair, and I don't truly enjoy it, but am learning to live with it!!
He now crawls everywhere and opens/touches everything. We have half baby proofed but its more like constant vigilence at this point, and once when he starts walking/running, its gonna be a totally different story. But he is never left alone, and is always in the same room with me (b/c I follow him to various rooms) so we can stop something before it starts.
He loves all our animals and wants to play with them, but at this point they just get annoyed and leave... Who knows if that will change! I like that they leave if they don't want to be there b/c then they won't swat him or something. He loves cell phones, remote controls, basically everything he can get his hands on.
I start my job this week so my parents are watching him this week, and he will be in daycare for the next 10 weeks. I have been having a very TOUGH time with this (including but not limited to panic attacks, etc), but I'm just gonna live through it and survive it and hope it goes well. He will be in the same building as me so I can come pop my head in (which I will 100% do), so that makes me feel a bit better. As long as I know he is in a safe environment then its ok...
Well, I think thats it for now. Am attempting to get my health in shape for child #2, in t-9 months!! Be good all!
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Teeth and more teeth
So it's been a while since I have updated... So, we have 3 teeth now and I feel tooth #s 4-6 will be coming shortly. For Eli teething consists of alot of chewing on his fingers, sleeping and crankiness. But thus far we are doing well with it. The whole teething process is quite insane and its sad that it hurts the baby :( But they've got to come in!
In terms of interaction its amazing, we are now experiencing light 'seperation anxiety' and likes to be held by me, my dad and my mom, everyone else gets cries and he just wants his mom.. He will basically twist around in that person's arms to find someone he knows then puts his hands up. It's super cute!
We are clapping, waving, holding very small things. One thing I think its really cool is his attention to detail- he takes his index finger and feels small details on clothes, toys, chairs, et. He also will notice little things that others might not. We were sitting outside tonight and a flock of birds flew out of the tree in the yard and his eyes followed them up to the sky. A breeze went by a piece of newspaper outside and he watched it rustle. I wonder what it will mean in the future..
He talks, not a ton, but when he wants to say something he will. No definitive words yet but I hear 'dadadasdadadas' (which is generally the beginning of language sound) and I can SWEAR he says 'mamamamamamama' :) I am in no rush.
We aren't crawling yet, but we def. can move everywhere and anywhere and open and close drawers, cabinets, etc!!
All is going well. I start work at the end of next month so he will be going into daycare for abt 9 weeks and it's something I am working on dealing with but I hope it will be a good, positive experience for him. I guess time will just tell- you know? But I am going to strive to maintain the same nightly schedules and be as flexible as I can be during the day. He will in the same building I am working out of so if I am ever needed I can be there in under a minute which makes me feel good!!
Okay- time to put Mr. Eli to bed (10 months, 1 week old now!) :D
In terms of interaction its amazing, we are now experiencing light 'seperation anxiety' and likes to be held by me, my dad and my mom, everyone else gets cries and he just wants his mom.. He will basically twist around in that person's arms to find someone he knows then puts his hands up. It's super cute!
We are clapping, waving, holding very small things. One thing I think its really cool is his attention to detail- he takes his index finger and feels small details on clothes, toys, chairs, et. He also will notice little things that others might not. We were sitting outside tonight and a flock of birds flew out of the tree in the yard and his eyes followed them up to the sky. A breeze went by a piece of newspaper outside and he watched it rustle. I wonder what it will mean in the future..
He talks, not a ton, but when he wants to say something he will. No definitive words yet but I hear 'dadadasdadadas' (which is generally the beginning of language sound) and I can SWEAR he says 'mamamamamamama' :) I am in no rush.
We aren't crawling yet, but we def. can move everywhere and anywhere and open and close drawers, cabinets, etc!!
All is going well. I start work at the end of next month so he will be going into daycare for abt 9 weeks and it's something I am working on dealing with but I hope it will be a good, positive experience for him. I guess time will just tell- you know? But I am going to strive to maintain the same nightly schedules and be as flexible as I can be during the day. He will in the same building I am working out of so if I am ever needed I can be there in under a minute which makes me feel good!!
Okay- time to put Mr. Eli to bed (10 months, 1 week old now!) :D
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
daycare
So my little baby is 9 months old now. We have 2 teeth, smiles up a storm, very engaging- loves everyone. When he is shy, he puts his head down on his chest. He is a wonderful, adorable, sweet little baby. I love him every moment of every day. :D
Having said that, this summer I will be working at a full time job till mid August. Its a 3 month gig and during this time Eli will be in daycare. It will be a totally, different, new world for him and I am just really dealing with the unknown. Since he is not crawling/walking/talking yet, I have no feedback other than smiles about he feels about something. I wish he could tell me how he felt abt me going back to work, and what that would mean for him. Now since really none of us remember being 1 or 2 or 3, etc (my earliest memories are in 4th grade), I know that this will effect me more than it does him.
BUT, as his mother, its my job to place him in a good environment, one that is loving and safe and caring and sweet and nurturing. Which is a tall order for anyone really. I just don't want my beautiful baby stuck in a room all day and doing what everyone else is doing all day long. My parents will most likely pick him up in the early afternoonish so he won't be in daycare all day, but I will miss not being near him.
Alot of mothers work, always have, always will- so this is not a new scenario. And the daycare is in the same building that I will be working in- which is truly one of the main reasons I would even work there. They have the highest accrediation in the country, but none of that means jack if the love isn't there... But it could be, I don't want to get ahead of myself.
I am his mother, his primary source of love and life. I will always be his mother, and he is all mine at the end of the day. Well, until he is 10 and starts wanting to hang out with his friends more than me.
Thats another thing- everyone tells me that babyhood is short and I must enjoy every minute of it. But, its a mixture of being realistic and needing to pay bills and doing the best I can really.
I think it will just play itself out really. If its meant to be, it will be, if not, then not.
Okay- tis it for now!
Having said that, this summer I will be working at a full time job till mid August. Its a 3 month gig and during this time Eli will be in daycare. It will be a totally, different, new world for him and I am just really dealing with the unknown. Since he is not crawling/walking/talking yet, I have no feedback other than smiles about he feels about something. I wish he could tell me how he felt abt me going back to work, and what that would mean for him. Now since really none of us remember being 1 or 2 or 3, etc (my earliest memories are in 4th grade), I know that this will effect me more than it does him.
BUT, as his mother, its my job to place him in a good environment, one that is loving and safe and caring and sweet and nurturing. Which is a tall order for anyone really. I just don't want my beautiful baby stuck in a room all day and doing what everyone else is doing all day long. My parents will most likely pick him up in the early afternoonish so he won't be in daycare all day, but I will miss not being near him.
Alot of mothers work, always have, always will- so this is not a new scenario. And the daycare is in the same building that I will be working in- which is truly one of the main reasons I would even work there. They have the highest accrediation in the country, but none of that means jack if the love isn't there... But it could be, I don't want to get ahead of myself.
I am his mother, his primary source of love and life. I will always be his mother, and he is all mine at the end of the day. Well, until he is 10 and starts wanting to hang out with his friends more than me.
Thats another thing- everyone tells me that babyhood is short and I must enjoy every minute of it. But, its a mixture of being realistic and needing to pay bills and doing the best I can really.
I think it will just play itself out really. If its meant to be, it will be, if not, then not.
Okay- tis it for now!
Friday, February 20, 2009
Shots
When you have an infant child in the United States they are required to get shots- alot of them- 31 to be exact (I know b/c I was just at the peds. office and I counted!). I have been extending Eli's vaccines by 6 weeks per set of immunizations. So shots he should have had at 2 months, he got the first at 2 months, then the 2nd part at 3 1/2-4 months, respectively. We have now started the 6 month shots at almost 8 1/2 months old. IT IS MIND BOGGLING how many shots and how quickly they get them all. Infants/toddlers receive 25 of these shots within 18 months of life. Can you imagine going for 25 shots within such a short amount of time?
I am really working on staying on top of it all, and the head nurse praised me for how well I am doing, but man o' man, its alot of work. I had sheets and was consulting with people and just trying to figure out when I think its acceptable and Eli is old enough to have them. I will never ever give Eli or any future child the shots according to their schedules b/c I don't believe the child's immune system is mature enough and they don't weigh enough at the times they want to give it to them.
For instance when a child is born- Day 1- literally they want to give the Hep B shot. A brand new newborn who hasn't even had formula, innocent as can be they want to shoot up that child with this and hope they do ok. Not on my watch.
I am sure there will come a time when they either get rid of some of these shots or figure something b/c how could such little bodies handle all these things coming in to them ok? But 31 shots... Oy...
I do feel good about spreading them out and making sure my child is old enough to handle them.. But I hope they figure other ways to combat these diseases with these children..
I am really working on staying on top of it all, and the head nurse praised me for how well I am doing, but man o' man, its alot of work. I had sheets and was consulting with people and just trying to figure out when I think its acceptable and Eli is old enough to have them. I will never ever give Eli or any future child the shots according to their schedules b/c I don't believe the child's immune system is mature enough and they don't weigh enough at the times they want to give it to them.
For instance when a child is born- Day 1- literally they want to give the Hep B shot. A brand new newborn who hasn't even had formula, innocent as can be they want to shoot up that child with this and hope they do ok. Not on my watch.
I am sure there will come a time when they either get rid of some of these shots or figure something b/c how could such little bodies handle all these things coming in to them ok? But 31 shots... Oy...
I do feel good about spreading them out and making sure my child is old enough to handle them.. But I hope they figure other ways to combat these diseases with these children..
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Our first cold
I had been hearing stories from other mamas about their babies getting colds, etc and I was just waiting for Eli to get his first cold. Kinda on baited breath- when will it happen? What will it be? HOW will it be? Will he be ok, etc... So we got it. Last weekend- it started with him being very tired and not so happy, then a runny nose, then a deep cough. We have passed the runny nose and just have the deep cough left. His whole schedule including sleeping and eating was off, but today he seemed to be somewhat back to normal. On top of all this he is getting his 2nd tooth in which hurts! :( So its been a double whammy.
But other than that things are going normally. I had wanted to work fulltime next year but I am realizing I don't want to be away from my son everyday, all day. So I am fortunate enough to be in a position to working a couple of part-times job in the Fall to make enough money to pay all my bills, but the big one of daycare (at least $11K/yr) has gone away.
I love love love being with my child. No one else can watch him or care for him as well as I can. I know what works for him, what doesn't, how much he eats, sleeps, etc... I am honored that I can spend these critical years with him, he will never remember them but at least I will have known. The more I grow as a parent, the more I kinda understand it all.
I didn't believe the hype about being fulfilled and priorities changing, but, they are and I half don't know what to do about it and half love it. It's like there is this old me, the single lady who lived alone who had big dreams, traveled alot and the new me, a mother, a caregiver, a provider- I go down in history books as hopefully a grandma, great-grandma,etc. ME. But at the same time I want to be able to do all the old things I did before baby- mainly traveling, but everything kinda changes. The money I would have spent on let's say movies, now goes to diapers (which if you get the Target brand is pretty cheap). It's a everything-that-was-mine is now ours. Its just different... and now, there is college to think about! But not mine, his.
Having said all that there is even more change on the horizon as I hope to go for #2 in next Summer ('10), and have started my maternity insurance, so really if I wanted I could start in March of 2010. Thats essentially 12 months away. I feel like I am going through the same process I did before I had Eli, I am starting to do a big clean/donate/get rid of thing. I am symbolically making room for a 2nd.. and this is all before my 1st even has started crawling!
As I was putting Eli to bed tonight, and he looks at me and smiles and is cute and now really recognizes me and cause and effect and all of that, I was just happy that I had made this choice to be a mother. I can't imagine not ever NOT being a mother.. and as a result I am starting to get the fulfilling thing and thats scary... But fortunately children grow up slowly so you get used to everything on a pace you can handle... But life evolves and I am happy to join this journey as long it allows me to be on it... eek!
But other than that things are going normally. I had wanted to work fulltime next year but I am realizing I don't want to be away from my son everyday, all day. So I am fortunate enough to be in a position to working a couple of part-times job in the Fall to make enough money to pay all my bills, but the big one of daycare (at least $11K/yr) has gone away.
I love love love being with my child. No one else can watch him or care for him as well as I can. I know what works for him, what doesn't, how much he eats, sleeps, etc... I am honored that I can spend these critical years with him, he will never remember them but at least I will have known. The more I grow as a parent, the more I kinda understand it all.
I didn't believe the hype about being fulfilled and priorities changing, but, they are and I half don't know what to do about it and half love it. It's like there is this old me, the single lady who lived alone who had big dreams, traveled alot and the new me, a mother, a caregiver, a provider- I go down in history books as hopefully a grandma, great-grandma,etc. ME. But at the same time I want to be able to do all the old things I did before baby- mainly traveling, but everything kinda changes. The money I would have spent on let's say movies, now goes to diapers (which if you get the Target brand is pretty cheap). It's a everything-that-was-mine is now ours. Its just different... and now, there is college to think about! But not mine, his.
Having said all that there is even more change on the horizon as I hope to go for #2 in next Summer ('10), and have started my maternity insurance, so really if I wanted I could start in March of 2010. Thats essentially 12 months away. I feel like I am going through the same process I did before I had Eli, I am starting to do a big clean/donate/get rid of thing. I am symbolically making room for a 2nd.. and this is all before my 1st even has started crawling!
As I was putting Eli to bed tonight, and he looks at me and smiles and is cute and now really recognizes me and cause and effect and all of that, I was just happy that I had made this choice to be a mother. I can't imagine not ever NOT being a mother.. and as a result I am starting to get the fulfilling thing and thats scary... But fortunately children grow up slowly so you get used to everything on a pace you can handle... But life evolves and I am happy to join this journey as long it allows me to be on it... eek!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
teeth and maternity riders
Eli got his first tooth on January 21, 2009. Its sooo super cute. He has been chomping and biting and eating anything he can to soothe his aching teeth! His symptoms thus far have been alot of sleeping and a bit of crankiness, but really not much. No drooling, etc... But I take every single day, every single event individually. So one could be connected and one might not. So Eli is 7 1/2 months tomorrow- whee! I love it- he sits up in a high chair, in the grocery cart- the independence is great! And we are in this in btwn stage b/c he is not walking yet so I am not chasing him everywhere yet. So I shall enjoy the next 2 months before it gets crazy!
So I applied for a maternity rider on my insurance, making it officially official that I am preppin' for #2. Its exciting :) I will let everyone know how everything is going.
So I applied for a maternity rider on my insurance, making it officially official that I am preppin' for #2. Its exciting :) I will let everyone know how everything is going.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Clothes, clothes and more clothes
So I go to Target to buy Eli's diapers and food, etc and every single time I am there I check the 75% off racks for baby clothes. Now, mind you, baby clothes thus far are 1 time wear things for Eli. He has sooo many clothes (hand-me-downs, gifts, things I have bought him), he will literally wear something once, grow to big and I "retire" it (meaning put in a big rubbermaid container for next child or cousins). So yesterday, I go in, get diapers, and just peek.. and what do I see??
Duhh, dunnnn, dhhnnnnnnnn (spooky music)
I see racks upon racks of 75% off baby/toddler clothes.. I nearly died and went to happy clothes heaven. AND I had a $35 gift card. So I gingerly make my way over to the racks, start going through them.. Hmm, this looks good- he could wear this next winter.. oh.. wow. that looks good.. he could wear that in 2 winters..
I think you get my drift. So basically I ended up buying 20 pieces of clothing from pants to shirts to sweaters to hoodies ranging from $1.48-$3.00. My child needs nothing now besides a pair or jeans or two for the next 3-4 winters.. :)
So one would think I was done- ha! I cross the aisle to the big boys/teens boys section where they too were having sales and I pick up a t-shirt or two he can wear when he is like 12. So in 1 shopping trip I have aged my son 11 years.. Good times..
Everything else is going well. I going to be working fulltime this summer and having him in the daycare, but the good news is the daycare is the same building. So I will get to visit and see him and that will be wonderful. I don't know whats going to happen in terms of employment for the Fall but who knows! Tis it for now :)
tttyssssss
Duhh, dunnnn, dhhnnnnnnnn (spooky music)
I see racks upon racks of 75% off baby/toddler clothes.. I nearly died and went to happy clothes heaven. AND I had a $35 gift card. So I gingerly make my way over to the racks, start going through them.. Hmm, this looks good- he could wear this next winter.. oh.. wow. that looks good.. he could wear that in 2 winters..
I think you get my drift. So basically I ended up buying 20 pieces of clothing from pants to shirts to sweaters to hoodies ranging from $1.48-$3.00. My child needs nothing now besides a pair or jeans or two for the next 3-4 winters.. :)
So one would think I was done- ha! I cross the aisle to the big boys/teens boys section where they too were having sales and I pick up a t-shirt or two he can wear when he is like 12. So in 1 shopping trip I have aged my son 11 years.. Good times..
Everything else is going well. I going to be working fulltime this summer and having him in the daycare, but the good news is the daycare is the same building. So I will get to visit and see him and that will be wonderful. I don't know whats going to happen in terms of employment for the Fall but who knows! Tis it for now :)
tttyssssss
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Sitting and gone green
Hi All-
Well Eli is almost 7 months now (this upcoming Friday). As of the last week we have been rolling across the floor and sitting up on our own! I feel alot more independence now that he can sit up by himself. I know that there is an end to the 100% carrying him around phase :) I love him dearly but as he gets older carrying him around gets harder :) So that is a big milestone and I am happy for him...
What else? I've gone green! He eats only organic baby food (unless we are out then I give him table food), I use 7th generation products for all his cleaning needs- washing his bottles, doing his laundry, cleaning his rooms. I feel safer, more confident knowing he isnt growing up around chemicals. As much "cleaning" they might do, the chemical usage I think is much more harmful in the long run. So to the best of my abilities I will make sure he doesn't havbe to inhale, be exposed to that stuff!
We came back from TN about 2 weeks ago and that was fun. It's def. hard to travel with babies you just have to be super patient and know your limitations. Its amazing how discrimitory businesses/restaurants are against babies. I can't tell you how many times I have had to change Eli's diaper on the floor of some dirty restaurant floor b/c they have no diaper changing area. And when we went to Dollywood they wouldn't allow strollers into the building (well into the areas where you could buy something of course they did- just not everything else- interesting eh??)... So it was really cold and I had to shlep a tired, cold baby in and out, in and out of his stroller. But other than that I had a nice time there. It's very pretty!
Whats the next step for Eli? Well we should start crawling I would say by March-ish?
He is a very engaged child. He loves talking to people, looking at everything going on around him. He wants to be apart of it all. I think he is going to be a journalist b/c he is so interested in whats happening and what people are doing! Only time will tell...
Its interesting how things are shaping up. It seems some of life's decisions just kinda get made for you. At this point, although things might change Eli will be going to a Jewish day school thats abt 15 minutes from here.. Which would be quite awesome- it is my intense desire/interest for him to grow up in a strong Jewish environment. A conservative one, but one in which we are actively participating and being Jewish. So my goal is to give him a good balance of the two.
The first year of life with an infant is very much about the physical aspect of just growth and survival, but as they age you kinda shift to more of a psychological, nurturing parental role. I wonder when this comes if the transition is difficult or you just ease into it?? I am not saying that I am anywhere near that but I feel that I am more of a parent/nurturing type so hopefully it will go well...
Alright a pic then I'm out!
Well Eli is almost 7 months now (this upcoming Friday). As of the last week we have been rolling across the floor and sitting up on our own! I feel alot more independence now that he can sit up by himself. I know that there is an end to the 100% carrying him around phase :) I love him dearly but as he gets older carrying him around gets harder :) So that is a big milestone and I am happy for him...
What else? I've gone green! He eats only organic baby food (unless we are out then I give him table food), I use 7th generation products for all his cleaning needs- washing his bottles, doing his laundry, cleaning his rooms. I feel safer, more confident knowing he isnt growing up around chemicals. As much "cleaning" they might do, the chemical usage I think is much more harmful in the long run. So to the best of my abilities I will make sure he doesn't havbe to inhale, be exposed to that stuff!
We came back from TN about 2 weeks ago and that was fun. It's def. hard to travel with babies you just have to be super patient and know your limitations. Its amazing how discrimitory businesses/restaurants are against babies. I can't tell you how many times I have had to change Eli's diaper on the floor of some dirty restaurant floor b/c they have no diaper changing area. And when we went to Dollywood they wouldn't allow strollers into the building (well into the areas where you could buy something of course they did- just not everything else- interesting eh??)... So it was really cold and I had to shlep a tired, cold baby in and out, in and out of his stroller. But other than that I had a nice time there. It's very pretty!
Whats the next step for Eli? Well we should start crawling I would say by March-ish?
He is a very engaged child. He loves talking to people, looking at everything going on around him. He wants to be apart of it all. I think he is going to be a journalist b/c he is so interested in whats happening and what people are doing! Only time will tell...
Its interesting how things are shaping up. It seems some of life's decisions just kinda get made for you. At this point, although things might change Eli will be going to a Jewish day school thats abt 15 minutes from here.. Which would be quite awesome- it is my intense desire/interest for him to grow up in a strong Jewish environment. A conservative one, but one in which we are actively participating and being Jewish. So my goal is to give him a good balance of the two.
The first year of life with an infant is very much about the physical aspect of just growth and survival, but as they age you kinda shift to more of a psychological, nurturing parental role. I wonder when this comes if the transition is difficult or you just ease into it?? I am not saying that I am anywhere near that but I feel that I am more of a parent/nurturing type so hopefully it will go well...
Alright a pic then I'm out!
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