Eli has started walking!! Albeit one step here, one step there but at least its progress. I am not going to mark it down in the baby book though until I see at least a 3-4 step consecutive thing happening. He now points to pretty much everything and goes "what's this?" and then "what's this?"- I think its a good positive step towards enriching vocabulary and him learning what everything is.
I have started to make some headway on my storage space- ritual cleansing for next baby- and that feels good. I made a firm 'to do' list of things I felt needed to be done before I could even try before next baby. So I am making headway on that and frankly I won't start trying if those aren't done because these things involve alot of physical labor I simply won't do when I am pregnant. So I either do them now or wait for a yr! Ha- and that's not going to happen.
It's really interesting as I am cleaning my stuff out I am going through older versions of myself. I know where I got a bunch of my books/records and I am really facing the question of to donate or not. It's like letting go of parts of me, but I have to realize I am an evolving person and those parts don't necessarily reflect who I am becoming (a mother). And all these things I give away I can get again somehow through a library or Netflix or online, but its still hard. I am at an odds with it. But I just have to beleive that these things will go to better homes than I can currently give them. My motto is going to be if I don't have space for them now, I am not going to have space for them in the future. And since Eli won't appreciate some of my books until you know he's 20, I doubt that I will have much time to pursue them...
Like I said its a work in progress but one I am happy that I am doing now :)
Monday, October 12, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Double stroller
So it's been a bit since I last wrote- alot of contemplating, alot of just being and alot of "what ifs." A friend of mine cosmically aligned me (not knowing it of course) by getting a double jogging stroller. I was at my fav place to shop- Goodwill that is, and there it was just sitting there waiting, a perfectly good working double jogging stroller, for $30. It took me about 5 seconds to snap it up before anyone else did. By buying this stroller I have put one foot in front of the other to begin to prepare for another child.
Eli is doing well, thank g-d. He still isn't walking, but always always on the verge of it. Like today he was standing reaching out for a toy and you could see he wanted to step over and reach it, but he stopped himself and sat on his tush instead. So we are there, I am practicing walking with him, but hopefully he will get it soon. He has 8 teeth in, and I guess at some point supposed to get molars in? Not sure abt that one, and we are working on speech.
People tell me that the big '18 months' is when the real toddler stuff begins. Its the place where they can't tell you what they want meets the fact that they will get what they want whether you can help them or not. I got a glimpse of that today when we were at Michaels and Eli was grunting/pointing towards something. And I was standing next to a wall of things and wasn't sure what he wanted. So I started offering him this and that, and finally we got to the markers, and I gave him one and he gave me a big smile. But in those in btwn 30 seconds it was hard!! I just hope that I have enough patience and kindness to do what is right in the moment and survive it/teach it/help him figure out the words to say what he wants.
I have begun tracking my temps for try #2. I started last month. I have a "lady appt" later this month with the midwife that I gave birth with Eli to. I am starting to get prices abt the costs of 'the procedures' and just starting to restart. The main difference this time vs last is I am fully versed in the what I need to do in order to start. There won't be as much wondering abt next steps, and more being proactive to make sure those steps are accomplished right.
I have a semi veil of secrecy over the when and how of it all. I intend to divulge some truths but not all. I can tell you it will be months before I begin- but not that many ;) The beginning is not just a get in the car and drive, but more of 'passing tests' to get a drivers license to get to drive type of thing. So its a process. One I do not want to rush. This g-d willing will be my last child for now (or ever???) and I want to be purposeful, knowledgeable and conscious abt every step I take.
It's hard having a total veil of secrecy when one lives with their family, but I will do what I can to the best of my ability without sharing so much. I am a big believer in the 'wait till 12 week' thing before you tell people you are pregnant, but when living with family I am not going to want to lift or do anything to strenous, so I am going to need their help which will be a dead giveaway of course :)
To be truthful to the blog world, I am nervous. Having one is a fulltime job, and at night when my son goes to bed I am off. I have a good 12 hrs before I am back on duty. The second I deliver, I am on again. 2 babies. Eli will be a bit older- not to much though, but womyn have done this before and will do it again. I just want my children (g-d willingly) be close to each other....
Having said that in my uber long post, I have begun my ritual cleansing in prepartion for baby. It's my multi month clean out of stuff which essentially allows the universe to give space for something new. I did it for Eli, and now I am doing it again. I have/had abt 15 boxes still unpacked and I realized these things in the boxes that I have now not touched for over a yr and a half are probably not doing me any good in the boxes. And that space it is holding up is precious space. So I am cleaning and donating and getting rid of the boxes.
I want to update more on this blog as the months progress, perhaps after my 'lady appt' later this month to make sure everything looks good. The weight ticker never worked so I shan't try it again!! But, nevertheless its on my mind and I have been doing little things to try to change my eating habits. Will it work? Only time will tell...
Alright- ciao for now!! :)
Eli is doing well, thank g-d. He still isn't walking, but always always on the verge of it. Like today he was standing reaching out for a toy and you could see he wanted to step over and reach it, but he stopped himself and sat on his tush instead. So we are there, I am practicing walking with him, but hopefully he will get it soon. He has 8 teeth in, and I guess at some point supposed to get molars in? Not sure abt that one, and we are working on speech.
People tell me that the big '18 months' is when the real toddler stuff begins. Its the place where they can't tell you what they want meets the fact that they will get what they want whether you can help them or not. I got a glimpse of that today when we were at Michaels and Eli was grunting/pointing towards something. And I was standing next to a wall of things and wasn't sure what he wanted. So I started offering him this and that, and finally we got to the markers, and I gave him one and he gave me a big smile. But in those in btwn 30 seconds it was hard!! I just hope that I have enough patience and kindness to do what is right in the moment and survive it/teach it/help him figure out the words to say what he wants.
I have begun tracking my temps for try #2. I started last month. I have a "lady appt" later this month with the midwife that I gave birth with Eli to. I am starting to get prices abt the costs of 'the procedures' and just starting to restart. The main difference this time vs last is I am fully versed in the what I need to do in order to start. There won't be as much wondering abt next steps, and more being proactive to make sure those steps are accomplished right.
I have a semi veil of secrecy over the when and how of it all. I intend to divulge some truths but not all. I can tell you it will be months before I begin- but not that many ;) The beginning is not just a get in the car and drive, but more of 'passing tests' to get a drivers license to get to drive type of thing. So its a process. One I do not want to rush. This g-d willing will be my last child for now (or ever???) and I want to be purposeful, knowledgeable and conscious abt every step I take.
It's hard having a total veil of secrecy when one lives with their family, but I will do what I can to the best of my ability without sharing so much. I am a big believer in the 'wait till 12 week' thing before you tell people you are pregnant, but when living with family I am not going to want to lift or do anything to strenous, so I am going to need their help which will be a dead giveaway of course :)
To be truthful to the blog world, I am nervous. Having one is a fulltime job, and at night when my son goes to bed I am off. I have a good 12 hrs before I am back on duty. The second I deliver, I am on again. 2 babies. Eli will be a bit older- not to much though, but womyn have done this before and will do it again. I just want my children (g-d willingly) be close to each other....
Having said that in my uber long post, I have begun my ritual cleansing in prepartion for baby. It's my multi month clean out of stuff which essentially allows the universe to give space for something new. I did it for Eli, and now I am doing it again. I have/had abt 15 boxes still unpacked and I realized these things in the boxes that I have now not touched for over a yr and a half are probably not doing me any good in the boxes. And that space it is holding up is precious space. So I am cleaning and donating and getting rid of the boxes.
I want to update more on this blog as the months progress, perhaps after my 'lady appt' later this month to make sure everything looks good. The weight ticker never worked so I shan't try it again!! But, nevertheless its on my mind and I have been doing little things to try to change my eating habits. Will it work? Only time will tell...
Alright- ciao for now!! :)
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