I'm ready

So I've cleaned, I've prepped, I've bought my last minute supplies and have actually started to eat somewhat healthier. I need to work on my sodium though, and just really try to block out all stress but, I'm ready.

So I guess we just wait for my next chance (which won't be for another couple of weeks), and then who knows.

:)

*here's to having faith and just closing my eyes and jumping right into the unknown*

Where I am now

Okay- so I am about to turn in somemore paperwork, then next cycle will be doing more bloodwork, an ultrasound..

Then I have some additional administrative stuff then its time. Eekkk. I have been super cleaning, and it seems in the process I have more of a mess so I need to remedy that situation.

I am going to really attempt to destress this time around. I've purchased candles, bought a robe, and am working on the feng shui of my room. I want everything to be comfortable and inviting so I can just rest in btwn watching Eli :) In btwn the procedure of getting pregnant, called an IUI, I have two weeks to wait.. Its called the "two week wait" and in my opinion resting your body, eating fattening foods and overall just being positive is a good thing.

I feel already that I am going to be disappointed if I don't get pregnant the first time, b/c I am pinning alot on it, but I know the older you are the harder it can be. I plan to take the summer off so I have four chances before I take a break. It took me five months with Eli so I don't know why I think it will happen any quicker this time, but I feel like am I ready? will i ever be ready? will I be okay with a toddler and being pregnant? I was so careful the first time around and this time I have a child who needs to be picked up and eeekkkk.

But I am just going to do the best I can and hope for the best and have faith in the world :)

Wish me luck!

Set back, then back on track

Well I realized I hadn't posted in a while so wallah! I went to my first appt at the fertility clinic for child #2 and it went surprising the same as it did for #1. Like the same questions, answers, procedures, which is funny just more expensive this go around!! Because I had already done alot of the tests for child #1 I am able to bypass though which is good...

So after that I got my records sent done from DC, started on bloodwork for #2, and just have more bloodwork I need do at another point in time along w/an ultrasound to make sure everything is still working well "down there." I have to say they are extremely thorough and if you ever had a question about your health previous to having a child I would work with a fertility clinic b/c they take some of the risk away b/c you are just tested for so much!!

So when I had my initial bloodwork done I came back with a low thyroid number basically I was .001 off the lower end of the scale, so they had me retake it and everything was fine- I was smack dab in the middle of the scale this time so crisis averted!

One of the reasons I want to have #2 now is really as you get older there are just so many chances for things to happen its really crazy, so the sooner the better!

So basically I need to make sure all my records get to the right place which will be my job for this month b/c alot of people have off for the holidays and its generally hard to get records sent anyways :)

Then next months goal is to have more bloodwork and the ultrasound, and G-d willing in Feb... well who knows ;) I am really being smarter this time and not just rushing with trying to get pregnant. As much as I want to do it now, its going to cost me almost twice as much each time and I don't have the luxury of wasting it. So I have to give myself the best shot I have when trying to get pregnant.

I took some time off w/my prenatal vitamins but am back doing so, and am charting my temps in the morning to help refigure out ovulation. Sooo I am kinda in a countdown again :) So woohooo :D