Where I am now

Okay- so I am about to turn in somemore paperwork, then next cycle will be doing more bloodwork, an ultrasound..

Then I have some additional administrative stuff then its time. Eekkk. I have been super cleaning, and it seems in the process I have more of a mess so I need to remedy that situation.

I am going to really attempt to destress this time around. I've purchased candles, bought a robe, and am working on the feng shui of my room. I want everything to be comfortable and inviting so I can just rest in btwn watching Eli :) In btwn the procedure of getting pregnant, called an IUI, I have two weeks to wait.. Its called the "two week wait" and in my opinion resting your body, eating fattening foods and overall just being positive is a good thing.

I feel already that I am going to be disappointed if I don't get pregnant the first time, b/c I am pinning alot on it, but I know the older you are the harder it can be. I plan to take the summer off so I have four chances before I take a break. It took me five months with Eli so I don't know why I think it will happen any quicker this time, but I feel like am I ready? will i ever be ready? will I be okay with a toddler and being pregnant? I was so careful the first time around and this time I have a child who needs to be picked up and eeekkkk.

But I am just going to do the best I can and hope for the best and have faith in the world :)

Wish me luck!