Closer

So I am getting really close to my starting day! I had my cycle, am on Day 11, and hopefully will be going in on either Weds/Thurs of this week to have my IUI.

I am really trying to present in the situation, monitor my temps, do my OPKs, look for signals and just get the best timing I could. There is alot going on in my life now so if I can just clear the schedule and just have some down time to relax, then I can focus on the task that lay ahead.

I am finding that I am almost having a dejavous type of situation when it comes to the secrecy of having a 2nd. With my first I didn't tell anyone and it caused me to skip friends outtings or go and not do things, and people didn't know why and some got angry. I even lost a friendship because of the whole experience, and I actually see the same pattern emerging as we speak! Someone invited me out during my 2ww especially during the days I need to be relaxing, and I had to say no and I didn't give a good reason so it seems like I am avoiding her, when she is really cool chica.

*ughhh*

So I am going to have rectify that situation with her. And also I got my penpal back from when I was trying the first time and she is trying again for her 2nd just like me and we are within days of each other. We have never met yet we are as "thick as theives."

So this week. I begin again. I should know probably within 10-11 days of the IUI. So not this Friday, but next Friday I should have a bit of a better idea if this month is a success or not. I need one of those AA prayers, the serenity prayers..

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time...

Wish me luck!!! :D