Merge of life

So, as I am attempting to try for a 2nd (t-17 days until IUI #2), I am starting to get my pre-baby life back. Eli is 20 months old and so much more "older boy" that I am starting to have the ability to do all my old normal stuff... Which is soo weird b/c I am starting to transition out of babyness. But at the sametime I am doing everything to pull myself back into babyness. I am starting to work more jobs, feeling more comfortable with him attending activities, starting to just be me plus baby..

But, on the other hand am super excited to try again. Its just something I noted and wanted to journal about! :)

BFN #1

Well, this time didn't work. I kinda didn't expect it too so I am not to disappointed. I mean last time it took me 5 mths so why should this time be any different?? Also, there is a HUGE difference btwn those IUIs and these. I already have a child, a beautiful, bright, red headed one. So with the first time it was "will I ever???" and for this one it's "I would love to add to my family" but the intense need isn't as strong. This doesn't mean I am giving up by any stretch of the imagination, but this first time wasn't as crushing.. Of course we will see how I am next month.

Alot of it is timing, and getting it right then hoping it takes! So I will try again in abt 20ish days. Yay!! I am all for the trying and getting it right to add to my family.

In other news, my darling son is starting to show toddler bed signs of readiness, which is both frightening/cool that we are going to a whole other level. On Wednesday I think I am gonna go out and get him one and put it in his room to start to get used to the idea!! Cool huh??

:)