14 1/2 weeks

This pregnancy has been different from the first one. I had more time to sit and concentrate on the last pregnancy and it was a really hard one, and because this one isn't as challenging and I have a toddler running around, the attn needed to be devoted just is so much more reduced. I wonder if that is how life is going to be- nothing will get the full attn it deserves? How do people handle so many children? Do some get shafted?? I am the first born so I always felt that I got what I needed b/c I was the first one to go through everything, but what if I was the 2nd or the 5th??

So this pregnancy has had some hot flashes, extreme tiredenss after working, back pains and normal pregnancy stuff. The thing I miss the most is my lack of ultrasounds. I feel that unless I can see the baby then who knows what is going on and its just alot of faith that everything is working right.

There are commercial stores that will let you do ultrasounds if you pay them, but they won't let me come in until I am 16 weeks. I would like to do an ultrasound a month, and even if this means having 1 at my doctors, and 1 at another place and 1 at another place that is my choice :)

I don't accept that I can't have what I want :)

Not a whole ton is new right now, but I wanted to post abt this pregnancy being different. Hopefully I should know the gender very soon. My mom is looking to hire a night nurse for a month afterwards so that should be wonderful as I will totally need it :)

Okay- hope everyone is well!

12w ultrasound

I am finding that this pregnancy is so much different from when I was pregnant with my son. I am not having the same tiredness, exhaustion, etc that I had, and I was waiting for it.. Everyday I was like uh oh tomorrow it will come! And it didn't. However this time I am getting hot flashes and my back is going out a bit more. I thought maybe my back was going out due to weight, but apparently thus far I have lost a lb! So thats good :)

I FB announced it the other day, and made sure to tell everyone who I know and love before that of course. I feel FB is like announcing it in the paper, everyone else should know so I tell them. But I am chugging along on this pregnancy. I am working fulltime so haven't had alot of time to really think about it. I will have alot more time in the Fall, so I can really prep and get ready then.

Otherwise I have tons of thoughts about siblings, and getting them to love each other and be best of friends. But I didn't have that with my siblings, so I feel that I get the perfect opportunity to do the right that I have been wronged by. I probably at this point think that I will only have 2 children, so I want them to be friends, and be there for each other, girl or boy, they can still grow up together and be happy.

I love being a mother and feel blessed that I get to be twice blessed!! I just have to make sure I have more 'me' time.. Not sure how thats going to work but I am sure it will...

So numbers here.. my son just had his 2nd bday party (music themed), and baby in belly is 12 w, 4 d old!! :)